My life has not just changed it has flipped on its drunken head.
As I experience another Thanksgiving in sobriety I find myself in a very reflective state of mind. What I am grateful for has transformed as I see things through a lens of promise and peace. I am able to notice the days minor details for the abundant beauty in them. My life has not just changed it has flipped on its drunken head. Thanksgiving has meant many things to me, most of them without much substance. But it is just those things of triviality that led me to a new sense of thanksgiving.
It diluted all the simple things in life that I was drinking down the drain.
In years past, I looked forward to the holidays. Thanksgiving was a great party weekend. The great food my sister would prepare. The fellowship of family and friends. Watching the Dallas Cowboys with my brothers. So much to be thankful for, right! But what I really looked forward to was the booze, the drinking and partying with family and friends. It diluted all the simple things in life that I was drinking down the drain. With a cold beer in hand, I was becoming the real turkey of all of our holiday traditions.
Alone, hopeless, and a washed up professional drinker.
I remember sitting in my home at the end of my illustrious drinking career on a Thanksgiving. Alone, hopeless, and a washed up professional drinker. The thing I looked forward to was the bar opening at four o’clock so all of us regulars could make our way up for another round of celebratory debauchery. That is what I had been reduced to. Drinking my Thanksgiving dinner out of a cold mug. I had lost all the semblance of beauty in my life. The booze had blinded me to all I had to be thankful for.
My heart pumping life back into a soul that had been lost in the darkness of addiction.
I am grateful today that as of March 21, 2014 I found real and lasting sobriety. In an instant my life was flipped on its drunken head. I slowly could feel the promise and purpose of life coursing through my veins. My heart pumping life back into a soul that had been lost in the darkness of addiction. Holidays would begin to have a new and true meaning in my life. One day at a time, I have begun to see the beauty in the small details of my life. The mundane of life, as Mark Goodson writes about, has become miraculous.
I begin to see the beauty in the simple things.
A sober life has brought me many wonderful things. I have found a purpose. Renewing the relationships with my children and family have been such a blessing. Finding that relationship that is grounded in God and real unconditional love that had always eluded me. Financial standing that I had never experienced in life before. All things of such miracle and wonder. I am grateful for them all and mercifully blessed. But as I reflect, I begin to see the beauty in the simple things.
We begin to realize that time is not a luxury we once thought we had.
The beauty in the simple things can be missed by us all way too often. As we get older we realize that they are fleeting. We begin to realize that time is not a luxury we once thought we had. We begin to grab those pieces of beauty as they float in front of us like magnificent snowflakes. They melt, as soon as they touch our fingers, and we feel like we cannot grab enough of them as time slips through our fingertips.
Look around you this holiday season. See the beauty in the simple things we see, smell, and hear. The sleeping faces of our children. The sounds of their laughter echoing with joy off the walls of our hearts. The slightest of touches from a significant other as you take in a memory together. The smell of food being prepared with generous hands in the kitchen. The hugs and hello’s from family not seen often enough.
Life is about all we can give.
If you are in a place where hope has vanished and darkness seems to have overtaken you. Life is out there, ready to be flipped on its head. See the beauty in the small things around you. Allow yourself to take it all in, realize what is important, and truly begin to be in a place of Thanksgiving. Life is so much more than what we can get or all we haven’t gotten. Life is about all we can give. When we respond to that sense of thankful giving we finally find a life of promise, a life of purpose, a life of more than enough.